Why me?

I put that title completely jokingly, but why me? Of all the people, i get the honour of having the opportunity to teach a Bible study at the Wesley Friday afternoons. I'm totally excited about having the chance to talk about some of the incredible things God has taught me through out my long life ; ) I knew i had many different choices. I'm glad i was able to go out with Hayley tonight. I finally got some direction. I know what God has been teaching me most recently through both reading his word and life. In Esther, Mordecai mentioned something about her being placed there at that time for God to use her for a tool in saving his people. That reminded me of Genesis when God let Joseph go through all those difficulties to raise him up and put him below pharaoh allowing the country of Egypt to prepare for a famine. It reminded me of how God is at work in absolutely everything. He is everywhere. He was definitely with me as Hayley and I were driving to Longview. He chose to protect me. Why, i'm not sure yet. I know that it's not my time to die yet. Ravi Zacharias said something in Walking from East to West that impacted me in a way. It said, "God has an appointment with each of us, and it is crucial that every man and woman know this. He will stop our steps when it is not our time, and He will lead us when it is. This is a reassuring truth to know for every believer, and a necessary trust for anyone who ministers in areas of great risk." In a way, that's what Esther must have realized as the time approached for her to go before the king without being called. I think i remember her saying something along the lines of "If I perish, I perish." Nothing should keep me from doing God's will, not even being afraid of dying. That's what this life is about anyway, isn't it? Getting ready for eternity. My life here on earth won't even be a drop in the bucket compared to eternity. I know, that was quite a tangent. Another thing i hope to be able to focus on is being able to see God. He's not only at work when he allows the breaks to stop you in time as a big truck is rapidly approaching. He's at work in absolutely EVERYTHING! He upholds all things by the word of his power (Hebrews 1:?). Scientists still don't know what keeps an atom from flying apart. The only logical theory i can think of after every hypothesis i have ever formed is, plain and simple, GOD! He's in control. He's like the duct tape that fixes everything and holds it all together when we break things. The difference between him and duct tape is that his fix is a permanent one. Not something that i have to worry about replacing and adding on to as i grow older. He sent his son to die, as a permanent fix to everything. The creator of this universe came and died on a cross and there's nothing i can do to add to his sacrifice. Once again, God's fix was a permanent and perfect one that will never need to be redone. I talked to Hayley about me being able to see God in the moon and stars. In every animal that i saw in Africa, and in every little insect, rodent, or critter that i see wandering around here in east Texas. God made the earth and all that's in it. From the minute piece of experience that i have in talking with them, artists seem to have one thing in common: they claim that they leave a bit of themselves in all their work. I think God did too. Of his power by creating dinosaurs, of his beauty by creating flowers and butterflies and stuff, of his size by creating the heavens and all that we can and cannot see in them, of his mercy and grace by sending his son. God is at work in everything whether i seem to be able to see it or not. How's that for late night rambling? At least it didn't take as long as i suspected it would, and now i have a spring board to begin my studying with. I do hope somebody can get something out of the lesson on Friday...